New Year, Same Me

New Year’s resolutions seem to be the flavour of January. Here is the reason why I am not going to be doing New Year’s resolutions this year.

New Year, same me. January rolls around and you definitely feel the pressure to reinvent yourself and I have definitely fell victim to this. I feel like I start every single year wanting to be on a diet, get fitter, do more and be more than who I actually am. It has taken me a long time and ALOT of life changes to think you know what, I am enough. I don’t need to reinvent myself, I need to build upon who I actually am and figure out who I want to be online and offline.

2021 was a rollercoaster of a year. I started the year as new mum with a 6 month old and facing the possibility of being made redundant whilst being on maternity leave. After a lot of wrangling with myself, I realised that I would have to cut my maternity leave short and get back to work. The prospect of going back to my old job in a new role they had allocated for me filled me with dread. I took a deep breath and despite it being one of the worst years ever, I managed to find myself a new job.

There began another life change, I started a new job all virtually and adjusted my priorities to take care of toddler and settle into a new role. It was exhausting, tiring and I honestly spent quite a few days last year just being a zombie. Almost a year on, I realised that I actually have a job I truly enjoy, in an organisation that I feel passionate about. I did it, I managed to find a new job in the middle of a pandemic.

Finding my self-confidence

I have to be completely honest, my self-confidence took a huge knock and I became paranoid about everything about myself. I started to invest my time in producing content for instagram and then oddly started to think it was completely normal to filter and edit and not share what I was actually doing everyday. I became obsessed with wanting to come across as interesting rather than myself.

Whilst feeling this way, I managed to find my ‘niche’ like all the blogging gurus tell. My niche is me. So I will post outfit of the days, recipes, travel and mum posts and not feel like I am doing something wrong. I don’t care anymore, people can follow me if they like.

For more life posts, see below:

Finding myself

Lessons 2020 taught me as a new mum

Having a baby during lockdown

Looking forward into 2022

So 2022. I want this year to be about self-care. A year where I am not afraid of changes and where I am committed to making memories. I feel like time is just flying by, especially where I feel like my toddler is growing at the speed of light. How am I going to be a mum of a two-year-old in July? Self-care is just that. I want to be more mindful, respect my mental health more and invest in the people who really matter. I want to make more memories with my loved ones, record more memories and take time to reflect each month too.

So what does this mean for my blog? I have no idea. I want this to be my space. Somewhere where I can talk freely about whatever I want. I will continue to write on here and it is for no other agenda, than it being an online journal of sorts.

Thank you for sticking with me,

Sanoobar x

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